As you left

I stood in the balcony and watch as you disappeared around the corner, tears falling from my eyes not caring if the neighbors saw me. I felt numb; I couldn't find the strength to move so I sat down on the steps allowing the feelings that had been bottled inside to flow freely, silent tears became loud sobbing. I wrapped my arms around my shivering body hoping to find some comfort wishing that this would all be a dream.
  I sat there motionless and it felt like everything was frozen in time for the tears wouldn't stop. Not knowing when it had started but as I wiped away the tears that were blurring my vision I felt that my face was wet and so was my hair, my entire body, my clothing soaking from the pouring rain. I felt my hands hurting and looked down to see that my knuckles were almost as white as snow from the length of time that I sat with my fist clenched together.
I try to get up from where I sat while the tears still run down my face, sadness in my heart realizing that even the universe had conspired and was sharing my pain, the reason for the rain.